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One of the main entry points to all the pleasure work I offer clients today was the journey I went on exploring my piss play kink.

Back in late 2022, I had just left my ex-husband and got my own place in small town Wisconsin.. 

My ex husband was the only real relationship I had ever had, and for the majority of our time together, it was a pretty toxic marriage. And because of that, I didn’t really have the proper space required to explore all facets of my sexuality in a healthy and comfortable manor. 

So, when I got out on my own, I hit the ground running. 

I love taking baths. I take one almost every day. 

I used to piss in the bath at the end and then quickly rinse off and drain the tub. 

I enjoyed the freedom of just letting myself piss.

Back then I also had created a snapchat account to post sexy content on my story for others to see. I also have a major exhibitionist kink. I was inching my way towards creating an OnlyFans account, and was having a ton of fun just showing off to a bunch of random guys on snapchat.

One time I recorded myself pissing on myself in the bath and posted it on my story.

So many guys responded with “omg that’s so hot”, encouraging me to post more of that.

There was something really engaging and permission granting about others being into it. Again at the time I would piss myself at the end of the bath so that I could quickly rinse off and “clean up” as, at the time, I wasn’t really into the idea of having my piss on me… or at least I didn’t think so

But then I kept doing it, and posting it, and getting amazing feedback and praise for it… it created this pleasure loop for me that sparked a desire to go even further with it all.

This is 4 years ago now. The exact series of events is blurry in my mind, but one thing lead to another, and I finally moved towards creating an Onlyfans account and promoting it on twitter. 

The piss content was taking off. And I quickly found out that OnlyFans doesn’t allow PissPlay content (they’re the most Vanilla platform out there for explicit content) and that I would have to post the paid content I was creating on JustForFans.

And so I did. 

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I then went on this wild journey of exploring all the different forms of piss play I could find pleasure in. 

I was pissing on myself everywhere, in every which way. 

The bath tub, the living room floor, the locker room, my car, the side of the road, gas stations, and out in the local forest preserves.

I played with desperation - holding my piss as long as I could, jumping up and down like a kid about to have an accident - and then getting my cock hard, letting out just a little bit of piss and pinching it off again with just the muscles of my cock.

I discovered I was really into wetting myself. 

Drinking a bunch of water and then just fucking flooding my pants. 

There was something so pleasurable in the freedom of this - to just let my body release so naturally without needing to be aiming my piss into a toilet.

I was also really into the messiness of it. The wrongness. The dirtiness. 

Walking around the park with soaked underwear. 

Or jerking off, splashing my balls in a puddle of piss on my living room floors.

Laying back and spraying a stream of piss all over my face and chest and then sliding around in a slippery mess of my own fluids.

It was filthy. And I loved it.

I played with so many new sensations.

I discovered the insane amount of pleasure that’s generated by having a toy up my ass, pressing against my prostate, as I milked a stream of piss out of my hard cock.

I even went as far as to wet myself in public, walking through a gas station or Walmart with undeniable dark piss stains on my jeans.

How far could I take this?

What else was there to discover here?

What I stumbled upon was the foundation of all the work I do today.

The healing potency of pleasure.

One of the most fulfilling parts of this adventure was the feedback I was getting from my audience. I received countless messages of how my unapologetic expression and enjoyment of this “dirty” kink was inspiring others to embrace it more fully themselves.

Messages like “I’ve been with my boyfriend for years, and this entire time I kept my piss play kink secret from him. Watching you own it so publicly has given me the courage to finally share it with him” 

 I was melting other people's shame through the expression of my pleasure. It was incredible

And all the while I was healing tremendous amounts of my own shame…and having fun doing it.

Flashback to my deeply catholic childhood where my mother was my religious education teacher, we went to mass at least once a week, I was an altar boy, went to confession, spent my summers at Jesus camp and eventually got confirmed, I had an unfathomable amount of shame bred into me, especially around my sexuality.

I was conditioned to believe that I was dirty, sinful, and outright wrong for being attracted to other men.

Now let’s take a detour to one of my favorite books of all time, Existential Kink by Carolyne Elliot. This book (highly recommend reading it) proposes a method of shadow work healing that teaches you to find pleasure and “get off” on the aspects of self that have been repressed, denied, and rejected. 

Essentially it says that if we can, instead of avoiding and further burying these aspects of self, access them in a way that is purely sensation, and better yet pleasure, we can meet the unconscious parts of ourselves with consciousness and therefore start vacating those shadow and repressed aspects of self from our being

Now lets apply that theory to the pleasure I was finding in all of this piss play.

The act of pissing on myself, wetting my pants in public, and enjoying the dirty mess of it all is by the larger public's standard, dirty, unacceptable, shameful, and wrong. Much like the buckets of repressed shame  the Catholic Church had bred into me around it’s views on homosexuality.

But here I was finding pleasure in all of it, and in the process, clearing tremendous amounts of that shame from my system. 

I was unintentionally healing spiritual trauma via kink and pleasure.

I had struck gold. 

This journey was what first introduced me to the healing potency of pleasure.

It’s what inspired me to start offering nude “pleasure Reiki” sessions where I started exploring what’s possible when the healing potency of pleasure is combined with the spiritual potency of Reiki

This story continues with me getting introduced to Marc Peredis and making my first trip to Palm Springs to participate in one of his trainings, Sex Shaman, Sacred Prostitute, where I was first introduced to the term Sacred Intimate.

That experience kicked off the next evolution of my client work, which ultimately evolved into what I offer today.

But the rest of that journey is a story for another time.

In the meantime, all my Piss Play content is still posting on my JustforFans account.

https://justfor.fans/juicyboy

You’re more than welcome to come join me in this pleasure. 

I haven’t made any new content for this page in a while, but there is a ton of fuckign sexy, dirty, risky and deeply pleasurable piss play content cycling through.

Enjoy😉

Existential Kink - Carolyn Elliot