Flesh Feasting Shame Eater

I’m a shame eater.

I’m a shapeshifting, sadistic, flesh feasting shame eater. 

I literally eat and “digest” my clients’ shame for them…at least the ones who let me.

I’ve been aware of this for at least a year, but as I attract clients who are a deeper match for my medicine, this part of my work is coming even more online.

Shame work is at the core of everything I do. 

Many of my clients don’t come to me with an active and conscious intent to do shame work, but it’s still the underlying energetic and emotional distortion that gets transmuted in session, one way or another. 

Eventually I’ll write an entire passage on how sinister shame is and how deeply it distorts our connection to self, spirit, body, and perception of reality.

Have you ever had cupping done?

It’s a healing modality from Chinese Medicine where glass cups and (traditionally) fire are used to create intense suction on the body. The cups adhere to the skin and are left in place for 10–20 minutes. During that time, the suction pulls up toxins and tension from the muscles, flesh, and fascia—releasing tightness while also drawing stagnant Qi (life force energy) to the surface so it can be cleared from the body.

It often leaves bruise-like marks where blood and fluids have been brought up to the surface.

I do something similair. But with my mouth and teeth. 

I bite and I suck on my client’s flesh - extracting the shame from deeper layers of their energetic system the way the cups pull toxins from tissue. The pleasure I receive from doing this transmutes their shame. 

How does this work?

The process of clearing or transmuting dense emotions is really about freeing that density—raising its energetic state. Think of an ice cube as a dense emotion like grief. In order for it to clear, it has to melt. Otherwise, it stays frozen and stuck in place.

More expansive energies, like love, are like the warmth of the sun. When they come into contact with that frozen density, they naturally begin to melt it. And once it melts, it’s no longer stuck. It can move, dissipate, and release.

Shame is the most dense emotion. In this metaphor, it feels less like ice and more like calcified black tar, almost like asphalt, corroding, weighing down and blocking pathways of energetic circuitry within us.

Pleasure, on the other hand, is a deeply powerful energy. I experience it as a molten, magma-like energy that can burn, melt, and incinerate that tar, breaking it down and clearing it from the body.

Now I have a huge oral fixation with flesh. I love biting and sucking on it. I’m also a total sadist, meaning I experience and generate massive amounts of pleasure in my system from inflicting pain… consensually of course.

So when I pair the pleasure of this oral fixation with the pleasure that’s generated within me from the pain inflicted—from biting, sucking, and devouring my clients’ flesh—there’s an energetic pleasure based inferno created within me that easily burns away the shame I’m ingesting from them.

The amount of shame that’s able to be transmuted is directly proportional to how much pain the client is willing to endure. 

The deeper they allow me to go, the more this wild erotic, flesh feasting, shame eating beast comes alive in me, and the deeper levels of energetic transmutation we’re able to accomplish. 

It’s incredibly powerful and advanced energy work.